tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-203280432024-03-11T12:14:47.202-04:00from the screwed up brain of Sweet Desweet_dehttp://www.blogger.com/profile/01036735750137070590noreply@blogger.comBlogger50125tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-20328043.post-28855650280713980032010-01-01T19:53:00.002-05:002010-01-01T20:01:28.417-05:00A 365 ChallengeSO some of you are aware of the 365 challenge we are starting on H!. I'm hoping to do this. IF I cannot post daily I will definitly attept weekly a post of the weeks photo's<br /><br />I hope to complete this. Right now I dont think I can do it but DEFENITLY like the idea and will try my darndest.<br /><br />I think over the next few weeks I'll be settling into a new life. Of returning to work. GETTING back onto my WW food tracking. Attempting to figure out WHEN I'll get exercise into my life. AND NOW takinga photo a day.<br /><br />Which will be nice as I have been lacking in the photo taking of my children.sweet_dehttp://www.blogger.com/profile/01036735750137070590noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-20328043.post-59417610265545427482007-09-04T00:08:00.000-04:002007-09-22T13:15:32.832-04:00OK OK so heres her story.SO I guess I didn't come and post the next week. MAN has this summer flown by. HELL has the last 3 1/2 months flown by.<br /><br />So here's the birth story if anyone cares by now.<br /><br />So with MUCH anticipation AND 9 days late our newest member to our family had arrived. <br /><br />After what seemed like contractions to go on for ever. (8am Saturday till 1am Sunday 10 minutes apart lasting 30-90 seconds long) Chris had called me in desperation around 10am that he was stressed to the max with his supervisor. IF there was anyway I could call and say I needed him He would love it. THATS when I mentioned that THINGS were moving and he might get his wish granted. SO after our lunch at 11:30 Meagan and I took a nap. we woke at 1pm. AND i called Chris. There was no way I could attend to meagan during the afternoon with the contractions. He was home within 5 minutes. (let me just tell you he works about a 10-15 minute walk. HE BOLTED HOME.)<br /><br />SO rested a bit and figured since nothing was progressing Off to church I went. Again since I was overdue I got the "oh I thought yo would of had the baby by now." to which I replied Hopefully soon :-) Still nothing progressing. SO we had dinner and went about our evening.<br /><br />by 9pm I was tired. Called to confirm with the midwifes that its the 3-5 minute rule before calling again. AND what can I do to get things either going or slowing to rest. She mentioned I could take some gravol to help me sleep. SINCE they would rather I get sleep since its going to be a long process than coming in that night to gt checked.<br /><br />Tried to get some rest at 10 pm. worked through all those contractions. AND at 1am that morning they bloomed to 5 minutes apart lasting 90 sec at least. <br /><br />SO as I layed in bed. I finally got enough strength to roll out of bed as I was determined to take a bath to relax a bit. I finally rolled out at 1:30 am. At around 1:45 I called Chris. told him he needed to call my mom and call the midwifes. So my mom arrived at around 2:10. She was so worried for me. I was laying in the tub. Took about 10 minutes until I got the strength to fight the contractions as they was only about 30 seconds break between each to get up and out of the bath and get dressed. She was more concerned I found out later because she never went into birth naturally. all of us were c-sections. So as I moaned through the contractions I was basically scaring here. SO i did my walk to the front door with my eyes closed as I knew if I saw my mothers fear/tears I would lose it.<br /><br />Arrived at hospital at 2:30 am where I was in quite agonising pain through them. (at 3 minutes apart lasting minimum 2 minutes) when we arrived the hospital was on lock down. WHY not sure but the security guard was about to not admit me. BUT because I work for the hospital and had my id badge he left me in. BUT DUDE I'm in labour your seriously going to make me wait outside until lock down is over. COME ON.<br /><br />Get checked out and already 7-8 cm dilated. and within 45 minutes I was ready to go. <br /><br />REALLY different this time around. No drugs and really honestly only 3 contractions all day long where IT hurt like a MOFO in my back. <br /><br />Took about 3 contractions to get her out. AND then some persistent mild push during my last rest and whoosh she slipped out. <br /><br />I felt HORRIBLE towards my midwife. THEY were super AWSOME and that last push to get her out she went to get the fetal monitor to check her heart rate. THE second she touched my belly felt like spears going through my stomach and I yelled at her "get your hand FUCKING off me" I was ashamed at myself. BUT at least she firmly said back to me "we need to check her heart rate." but with saying that I birthed my daughter. <br /><br />So at 3:38 this morning we welcomed little Keelin Aeron Brid Gretchen Kathleen M..... weighing in at 8lbs 3.6oz and 20 1/2 inches long. <br /><br /><br />All she has done all day is sleep. I was so happy we were able to delay cord clamping. I had no tears and all natural. I was amazed with myself. AS it compared NOTHING to being induced with Meagan and gives me full confidence that I never need an epidural again. At least with natural progression. <br /><br />With her arriving so early we delayed calling the family. we got transferred to my private room and slept until 8am. Did the major calls and informed everyone that we planned to leave at 6pm. there was no need to stay.<br /><br />Time has been great had a baby shower at the end of July for her and next week were having her baptism as well as a mini party for Meagan's second birthday. basically cake and gifts.sweet_dehttp://www.blogger.com/profile/01036735750137070590noreply@blogger.com1tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-20328043.post-83465540654730173792007-07-16T05:40:00.000-04:002007-07-16T05:47:13.154-04:00ha that's funnyjust took a look when i last ported on here.Just a few hours (2) before my contractions started. Who knew.<br /><br />well i'll try to access the net via computer in the next few days to write down the events of that day. I'm currently accessing the net via my wii and pointing at each letter is long and annoying for the length THAT STORY would be.sweet_dehttp://www.blogger.com/profile/01036735750137070590noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-20328043.post-60669181025629350502007-05-19T06:12:00.000-04:002007-05-19T06:22:14.405-04:00ITS STILL IN MESo I'm now officially over DUE. 41 weeks 2 days pregnant and Counting.<br /><br />I'm in no rush. Baby is relaxed. BUT getting my biophysical to verify all is well with baby yesterday was INTERESTING.<br /><br />SO I and the midwifes have been DEAD CERTAIN that this baby has kept his/her back on my right side. WELL I guess we were wrong. AS she was finding the SPINE on the left. NOW this LATE in the game I don't thing baby is turning around from side to side during the night.<br /><br />Even the last few times at the midwives they have been feeling around CERTAIN the spine is on the right but only able to get heartbeat on the left. WE thought it was weird.<br /><br />SO I'm scared this kid is going to come out of me and have lanky legs. BUT even movements. I've been feeling this kids movements either directly centre with my belly button or on the Left side.<br /><br />So this kid is just elbowing me away.<br /><br />I'm tired of people calling and asking if he/she has arrived. Though not too many phone calls this week. I think my family has gotten the hint. IT was irritating my father calling everyday. You live bloody 20 minutes away WE will call you when we go to the hospital.<br /><br />I feel worst for Chris. He's been looking forward to a week off to spend with us and new baby for some time now. AND even if this baby arrives this weekend. MY mother is off work this week. BECAUSE we assumed baby would have been here by now. SO he's now scheduled to be off work next week. Because worst case scenario I'm being induced on Friday and we should have a baby before he would return to work on the Monday.<br /><br />I'm just hoping baby arrives this week. AS I would really like 2 weeks support for Meagan in stead of one.sweet_dehttp://www.blogger.com/profile/01036735750137070590noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-20328043.post-83693158793149502312007-04-30T22:57:00.000-04:002007-04-30T23:20:53.806-04:00WOW that was a close callSO today has been QUITE the interesting day.<br /><br />First official Maternity leave day. YIPPIE.<br /><br />Didn't start off to great. Last night was feeling quite hungry yet my tummy felt icky from carbs overload.<br />So slept that off.<br /><br />Woke this morning at 8am. THANK YOU MEAGAN for falling asleep at 9pm.<br /><br />Still not feeling Quite right. Had some strawberries with Meagan for breakfast. ADN still not feeling better.<br /><br />Around 10:10 Meagan chose to leave Barney (shocked the HELL OUT OF ME) to go upstairs. THinking little girl was still tired. SO off for a nap. SHe just hung out in her room. Made a mess of it. BUT its ok she just wanted time to herself.<br /><br />During that hour I still was not getting any better. Fighting a feeling of Hunger yet Repulsed by the sheer thought of it.<br /><br />THEN I got sick. All the strawberries came up and kinda felt a little better after that.<br /><br />Was just about ready to take a bath to relax a little more. BUT meagan wanted out of her room. So we took a warm bath together. Was nice. Started feeling a bit better but not 100%.<br /><br />Got meagan her lunch and at 1 she was ready for her nap.<br />I followed with a nap but still not feeling up to eating. NOW I started to think MAYBE this wee one is on his or her way.<br /><br />Woke up and got ready to go to midwifes. FEELING much better.<br /><br />All going well until she takes my blood presure at end. and with a big Uh Oh. She mentions now need to go to hospital. My blood pressure was too high for her liking 135/100. Its always beena round 110/80 or so.<br /><br />THEN she tells me what to expect. Fetal NST, another test of blood pressure. IF thers a concern they will induce me.<br />Basically the blood pressure coiuld go up if I'm getting ready to deliver baby anyways. SO the plans of getting meagan's blinds and having dinner with my girlfriend is well in limbo.<br /><br />SO off we go. Finally get there. GET strapped in and sit and wait. Things look ok. WAIT around for the OBGYN to come and give us the go ahead. BUT Surprisingly It came down. THey had me at 110/82.<br /><br />even the nurse was like "well see just sopme relaxing will get it down."<br />BUT I WASN'T STRESSED BEFORE.<br /><br />HEll all the thinking since leaving the midwifes at 4:10 drive to chirs's work to pick him up. Figure out if my mom is working at her second job tonight or not. CRAP theres very little ready in place for this baby. AT LEAST my bag was packed. WHO is chris going to get back home after IF we are induced. HELL with meagan I laboured for 5 hours after being induced. Technically depending when I get induced this baby could possibly arrive by 9pm. THIS AND THAT. I spent a good 20 minutes while driving there planning and stressing all about that.<br /><br />SO all was well. WEnt for some good pho's for dinner. AND just finished doing my EI claim and filing our TAXES.<br /><br />Which I can say there must be a billion people filing via UFILE as its super slow.<br /><br />BUT its done and expect to see my return in what the next 6-8 weeks. AND figure out a payment plan we cal live with for Chris repayment.<br />THink gonna have him set up either RRSP's or ask for an extra $20 taken off in taxes so its not such a hit to his/our wallet every year.sweet_dehttp://www.blogger.com/profile/01036735750137070590noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-20328043.post-51160283842055120602007-04-21T21:07:00.000-04:002007-04-21T21:24:15.573-04:00ALMOST THEREGOod lord 3 more weeks.<br /><br />I cant wait. Im tired of being tired. STILL not getting to sleep at decent times. BUT at least I have the opportunity to nap when meagan takes her nap. THOUGH this week has been quite busy that only thursday was the first day this week I could join her in her naps.<br /><br />Still not getting much done. GOT all my suplies ready for my hospital bag. I think. HAve to go over the list again. BUT NOWHERE near ready with theis computer room getting cleaned out to turn into a baby room.<br /><br />I think I'm going to have my sister come over on Thursday so I can tackle it.<br /><br />I'm hoping Baby will stay a little longer in me and not come early.<br /><br />So far baby hasn't dropped. THANK GOD. I'll get worried when it does. BUT I'm getting MAD BH contractions.<br /><br />WE went for a walk along the lakefront yesterday. NOTHING MUCH, had meagan in the stroller as I was not planning on chasing her. AND the slow pace I was going was bringing on contractions. GOD that was hell. Especially since I left my cellphone at home.<br /><br />we did have an interesting weekend last weekend. WEll Friday at least. My last day of work I spent 3 hours in the ER. the day before a client of mine came to centre AFTER having Diarhea all night and morning.<br /><br />WHY they parents sent him to school and then to us we are still unsure. So 3:20 am I get the sudden urge to vomit. Run to the bathroom. Urge goes away but I now need to pee. So here I am on the toilet and then vomitting into the tub. Thinking ok MAYBE this is my lovely morning sickness and I'll feel better not that its done.<br /><br />NOPE not feeling better. SO I call my program director to call in sick. VOMIT AGAIN. call my supervisor to let her know she needs to change the schedule. VOMIT AGAIN.<br />I vomitted ever 10 mintes until 5am.<br />Chris woke at 4am as usual. HAD him call my mom so that someone can be at the house for Meagan when she wakes. SO did not want to bring her along with us.<br />So it took some time for my mom to get here. BUT thats ok.<br /><br />GET to ER at 5am. go for the NST in maternity ward. THEY put us in a room thats like 8x11. SOOOOOOO SMALL. All is fine with baby. BACK to ER we go. GET IV and GRAVOL. we were amazed with the nurse. I have really deep veins and most of the time they colapse when trying to withdraw blood. WELL she got it fist try. WITHOUT hurting me.<br /><br />SO all was well but find out I have an kidney infections. CRAP I have been forgetting all week to take the dang pills. I remember once or twice a day. I'm horrible.<br /><br />So we see the midwives on monday and I was asking her IF we can request the room we had last time. IT was HUGE had a shower in the bathroom and the room was at least 16x16. SO hopefully baby will not arrive during the full moon when MORE WOMEN seem to go into labour. BUT other than that I hope we can get a large room.<br /><br />BUT i technically I only laboured for 5 hours with meagan. Does it really matter the size of the room.<br /><br />HELL YAsweet_dehttp://www.blogger.com/profile/01036735750137070590noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-20328043.post-45025133197845556582007-03-31T20:07:00.001-04:002007-03-31T20:23:27.224-04:00MAN what a day.. maybe TMISO today was an <span class="blsp-spelling-corrected" id="SPELLING_ERROR_0">INTERESTING</span> DAY. Started off well. Watching <span class="blsp-spelling-corrected" id="SPELLING_ERROR_1">Meagan</span> and eating breakfast.<br /><br />So around 9am Started just not feeling well. Thought maybe I was too hungry and not eating enough. BUT needed to take a bath with <span class="blsp-spelling-corrected" id="SPELLING_ERROR_2">Meagan</span> to get her clean. SO up we go to take a bath.<br /><br />Meagan is in the tub and I figure if I'm going to join her I should pee first. WELL out came watery <span class="blsp-spelling-corrected" id="SPELLING_ERROR_3">Diarrhea</span>. (<span class="blsp-spelling-error" id="SPELLING_ERROR_4">TMI</span> I know) BUT the thing was NO warning it was <span class="blsp-spelling-corrected" id="SPELLING_ERROR_5">coming</span>. Kinda like Well since your sitting on the crapper......<br /><br />THEN started feeling NOT WELL. Like a weirdness all over my belly. NOW I start to freak a bit. THIS cant be labour. I'm 6 weeks away. THIS CANT BE LABOUR. All I could remember from <span class="blsp-spelling-corrected" id="SPELLING_ERROR_6">Meagan</span> was that yes a one point I did have loose stool. Body's way of getting it out now before you crap on the delivery room floor.<br /><br />SO I recline in the tub as my lower back starts to ache. AND getting more weird feelings in my belly. After 20 minutes and <span class="blsp-spelling-corrected" id="SPELLING_ERROR_7">Meagan</span> done playing and cleaned. We decide to get out. SO as Meagan takes her tinkle in the tub after her baths (new thing for her. <span class="blsp-spelling-corrected" id="SPELLING_ERROR_8">She</span> knows she has to pee. pokes herself and then <span class="blsp-spelling-corrected" id="SPELLING_ERROR_9">pees</span>. Sure beats her peeing on the floor) Chris comes up to check on us. AT this point I'm trying to fight back Tears. I <span class="blsp-spelling-corrected" id="SPELLING_ERROR_10">don't</span> want to go into labour NOW.<br /><br />SO he finishes with Meagan so I can call the midwifes. She <span class="blsp-spelling-corrected" id="SPELLING_ERROR_11">reassured</span> me that it could possibly just be <span class="blsp-spelling-error" id="SPELLING_ERROR_12">braxton</span> Hicks <span class="blsp-spelling-corrected" id="SPELLING_ERROR_13">contractions</span> as I said I wasn't feeling anything BUT still not feeling RIGHT. AND now the back pain is constant.<br /><br />So her advice. Keep it a quiet weekend. and work on <span class="blsp-spelling-corrected" id="SPELLING_ERROR_14">re hydrating</span> myself. Hopefully its not a cold. or even <span class="blsp-spelling-corrected" id="SPELLING_ERROR_15">NOR WALK</span> virus. BUT to <span class="blsp-spelling-corrected" id="SPELLING_ERROR_16">monitor</span> the contractions.<br /><br />I was concerned as with <span class="blsp-spelling-corrected" id="SPELLING_ERROR_17">Meagan</span> my water just broke. I <span class="blsp-spelling-corrected" id="SPELLING_ERROR_18">don't</span> remember having contractions but when I look back at the book I was writing in during that day. I was having moderate period like cramps.<br /><br />SO go I <span class="blsp-spelling-error" id="SPELLING_ERROR_19">through</span> the day with mild cramping from time to time. WORST was while at church. Meagan was good for a little bit, but then got my blood <span class="blsp-spelling-corrected" id="SPELLING_ERROR_20">pressure</span> going when she started throwing books around crying and making her angry grunts. being <span class="blsp-spelling-corrected" id="SPELLING_ERROR_21">completely</span> <span class="blsp-spelling-error" id="SPELLING_ERROR_22">un</span>-<span class="blsp-spelling-corrected" id="SPELLING_ERROR_23">cooperative</span>. BUT I cant blame her. SO we left early. <span class="blsp-spelling-corrected" id="SPELLING_ERROR_24">She</span> was just going to continue being a shit. (my feelings at the time.) well we get to the car and <span class="blsp-spelling-corrected" id="SPELLING_ERROR_25">realize</span> were blocked from the only exit out. MOTHER FUCKER. SO now i sit and wait, and wait and wait 20 minutes. BUT now getting <span class="blsp-spelling-corrected" id="SPELLING_ERROR_26">stabbing</span> pains happening often.<br /><br />BUT now seems I'm getting these pains when my stress level goes up. Like when <span class="blsp-spelling-corrected" id="SPELLING_ERROR_27">Meagan</span> <span class="blsp-spelling-corrected" id="SPELLING_ERROR_28">decided</span> to toss her pizza across the room and drop her cup of juice. <span class="blsp-spelling-error" id="SPELLING_ERROR_29">I'm</span> sure my blood <span class="blsp-spelling-corrected" id="SPELLING_ERROR_30">pressure</span> was up as well. SO for the next 6 weeks. <span class="blsp-spelling-corrected" id="SPELLING_ERROR_31">More so</span> 2 weeks while I'm at work. I need to keep a mental note to stay calm. TO avoid these lovely <span class="blsp-spelling-error" id="SPELLING_ERROR_32">BH</span> contractions.<br /><br /><span class="blsp-spelling-corrected" id="SPELLING_ERROR_33">YIPPEE</span>sweet_dehttp://www.blogger.com/profile/01036735750137070590noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-20328043.post-80664247355114777762007-03-15T20:43:00.000-04:002007-03-15T20:54:34.616-04:00people looking you up on facebookOK so I'm not too sure what to make of this.<br /><br />So I've just recently started a facebook account. More so for the reason one of my girlfirends was only limited to 17 pictres to upload onto her Myspace account. She didn't quite like it.<br />SO i'm enjoying finding friends. OR them finding me.<br /><br />So I just got a message. From a name I quite didn't regonize. SO I open the message and all I see is " R U married to Chris???"<br /><br />Wondering Who would know that.<br /><br />SO I go looking at her account and realize SHE works with CHris. is a level higher at the dealership than him.she is also dating/common law/engaged/married to an SPOILED ASSWIPE chris has the priviledge to work under.<br /><br />BUT my thing is. WE dont have a common last name. Actually Its pretty Fucking in my mind. POLISH people would think otherwise.<br /><br />BUT my thing is WHY is she looking up his last name???? IS she tring to see if he has a facebook account with porn on it or something. Daily rants of what a spoiled ass wipe of a man she is with???<br /><br />SO I sit here confused on HOW to answer back. a simple yes. Is she gonna request to be a friend. cuz i sure dont want to.sweet_dehttp://www.blogger.com/profile/01036735750137070590noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-20328043.post-50276602063529353332007-03-10T20:36:00.000-05:002007-03-10T20:55:51.406-05:00WHAT A BirthdaySO yesterday was my birthday.<br /><br /><span class="blsp-spelling-corrected" id="SPELLING_ERROR_0">Didn't</span> start off so great. I was hoping that I could MAYBE <span class="blsp-spelling-corrected" id="SPELLING_ERROR_1">sleeping</span> till 8am if Meagan let me.<br />OH NOPE. SHE wouldn't let me.<br /><br />We were up at 3am.<br />So we got up had some breakfast as I was starving. AND I thought I might get to rest at 5am. STUPID me decided to start watching <span class="blsp-spelling-error" id="SPELLING_ERROR_2">JARHEAD</span> and in 5 minute she was awake. I was cursing myself As the volume was very low. REALLY LOW.<br /><br />So we watched our regular morning <span class="blsp-spelling-error" id="SPELLING_ERROR_3">treehouse</span> as I <span class="blsp-spelling-error" id="SPELLING_ERROR_4">layed</span> basically with 1 eye open to conserve brain matter.<br /><br />Meagan finally was getting ready for a nap at 9:30 well by the time It took me to wind down (30 minutes) I went to lay down in my bed and MEAGAN AWOKE. Still cursing myself as I knew I'd be up late and wanted a LITTLE REST.<br /><br />SO the plan was for my mom to come by after her lunch so I could do a little more cleaning and Shower shave and hopefully take a nap. AS Chris had planned to be home around 3:15-3:30. AND he would need to start getting ready.<br /><br />WELL my mom did not show till 3pm. AT that point <span class="blsp-spelling-error" id="SPELLING_ERROR_5">meagan</span> was napping and I was doing some dishes and bit of cleaning. SO I got all <span class="blsp-spelling-error" id="SPELLING_ERROR_6">guzzied</span> up and ready to go. BUT <span class="blsp-spelling-error" id="SPELLING_ERROR_7">meagan</span> was SUPER CRANKY GIRL. I <span class="blsp-spelling-corrected" id="SPELLING_ERROR_8">pitied</span> my mom for leaving her with my cranky child.<br /><br />SO took us all of no time to get downtown and had a LOVELY dinner at KIT KAT. I had a goat cheese salad that was to die for. Nice and warm and encrusted with seeds.<br />THEN I had their Surf and Turf which was a lovely fillet minion and 2 Jumbo tiger shrimp. was WONDERFUL.<br />THEN for desert I had their <span class="blsp-spelling-corrected" id="SPELLING_ERROR_9">chocolate</span> raspberry <span class="blsp-spelling-error" id="SPELLING_ERROR_10">tartufo</span>. THAT WAS HEAVENLY. the raspberry was nice and tart. <span class="blsp-spelling-error" id="SPELLING_ERROR_11">MMMMMMMMMMMMM</span><br /><br />THEN off to see Phantom of the Opera.<br />REALLY ENJOYED ourselves. THE only few downers was that up on balcony seats were cramped for space. THERE was enough room for my ass in the seat but no leg room. EVEN sitting up straight with my back against the seat my knees were on the back of the chair in front of me.<br /><br />My only beef was after the show I went to the bathroom. AND planned on taking the elevator as it was a hard journey up and I'm be walking down slowly probably <span class="blsp-spelling-error" id="SPELLING_ERROR_12">pissin</span> people off.<br /><br />SO there was a travel group <span class="blsp-spelling-error" id="SPELLING_ERROR_13">of</span> <span class="blsp-spelling-corrected" id="SPELLING_ERROR_14">High school</span> students from the states.<br /><br />THERE was a group of 4. standing in front of the elevator. TALKING whatever. NON looked like they NEEDED to take it but of course the girl mentioned a few times how "my feet are killing me in these shoes, <span class="blsp-spelling-corrected" id="SPELLING_ERROR_15">unless</span> you want to carry me. were taking <span class="blsp-spelling-corrected" id="SPELLING_ERROR_16">the</span> elevator" to which shes standing with 3 300 pound guys so, YEAH they could carry her or help her down.<br /><br />So just before the elevator arrives a MORE PREGNANT woman than me (<span class="blsp-spelling-corrected" id="SPELLING_ERROR_17">I'm</span> 8 months) I figure around 9 months waddles over. SHE mentioned to her hubby she does not <span class="blsp-spelling-corrected" id="SPELLING_ERROR_18">want</span> to wait. TO which he speaks up, "see shes pregnant (looking at me) <span class="blsp-spelling-corrected" id="SPELLING_ERROR_19">and</span> so are you, YOU HAVE A RIGHT to take the elevator"<br />SO we shuffle in. A grandma decided since its her husband <span class="blsp-spelling-corrected" id="SPELLING_ERROR_20">with the</span> bad knee she would take the stairs with her 2 grandsons. NICE OF HER. SO I manage to get on.<br /><br />BUT when pregnant lady approaches she stops and says "<span class="blsp-spelling-corrected" id="SPELLING_ERROR_21">I'll</span> wait for the next one" to which someone replies "<span class="blsp-spelling-error" id="SPELLING_ERROR_22">there's</span> room for 2" Hubby mentions shes <span class="blsp-spelling-corrected" id="SPELLING_ERROR_23">claustrophobic.</span><br /><span class="blsp-spelling-corrected"></span><br /><span class="blsp-spelling-corrected">So as we go down stupid teenage girl mentions "well whats the point taking the elevator if your claustrophobic?????" STUPID because its a physical feat to walk down all those stairs you dumb ass american BITCH.</span><br /><span class="blsp-spelling-corrected"></span><br /><span class="blsp-spelling-corrected">BUT other than that was one of my most meraorable birthdays ever.</span>sweet_dehttp://www.blogger.com/profile/01036735750137070590noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-20328043.post-50053406565490372452007-03-04T15:58:00.000-05:002007-03-04T16:11:57.345-05:00MAN oh MANSO I thought I had the Brunt of this pregnancy under wraps.<br /><br />AFTER all the early Nausia, bleeding stress and everything else. WHEN they all tappered off around week 22-24 I thought I was safe.<br /><br />WELL not really. I haven't had a good night sleep in 3 weeks. THAT could be in part of me staying up later to watch TV but even on the weekend I'm having a hard time getting my ass into bed for 9 so THat I can get sleep before Meagan wakes at 7.<br /><br />THEN I'm now finishing a nasty Upper Respiratory Tract infection. YUMMY. Have had it for 1 1/2 weeks now. WAS really bad at the begining Fever for 3 days. NOT EATING. Lived in a fog for 5 days. UNTIL this past monday I decided to see my family doctor about it. CUZ it was not no common cold.<br />I'm still stuck with this cough that no matter HOW MUCH or HOW HARD I cough. IT JUST does not satisfy the urge/tingle at the back of my throat.<br /><br />I am looking forward to this week being off. I'm going to spend most of this week cleaning the house and cleaning out this computer room. THE HOPE. a little baby will occupy this room very shortly. Still uncertain IF the computer is staying. STILL uncertain HOW things will look in this room. BUT if I can get it cleaned out. THATS one step closer.<br /><br />Especially Since April 13th is my last day of work and theres so much to be done in the next month. Because even though I'm taking off almost 1 month before due day. well 1 month minus 2 days. I dont think I'm making it to the 11th of MAY.<br /><br />AT my last midwife appointment SHe mentioned I was STILL measuring Larger. by 2 1/2 weeks. At that time I was 27 1/2 weeks measuring at 30 weeks.<br />Now many people have mentioned that ITS no cause for alarm, but my midwife mentioned I might need another ultrasound to verify all is well with the little one.<br /><br />I really dont want to be induced. I really dont want another epidural. AND I definityl dont want a c-section. BUT only time will tell. in the next 10 weeks.<br /><br />Well I best be going. Hear the pitter patter of little feet. Miss Meagan has awaken from her nap.sweet_dehttp://www.blogger.com/profile/01036735750137070590noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-20328043.post-1170813294084954782007-02-06T20:48:00.000-05:002007-02-06T20:54:54.096-05:00Good lord I'm tired.I cant get over HOW tired I am lately. Moreso this week.<br /><br />We had a new client start. AND hes is a busy as a bumble bee. JUST watching HIm got me tired.<br /><br />PLUS we took a drive down to Buffalo on Friday. Which was alright until we hit hamilton way. SNOWY. I was ready to stay the night in Buffalo after the Lacrosse Game if it was still snowy out. I did not enjoy my drive down.<br /><br />PLUS CHris was getting a bit peeved as we were detained at the border. HIS bestfriend has been flagged each time he tries to cross back into the states as a few months ago he tried bringing his girlfirends stuff across the border. WEll her papers for canadian citizenship were not filed yet so he had to return everything she owned to a goodwill.<br /><br />Had fun at the game but I was wipped out all weekend. Spent saturday shopping. LOVED blowing all my money on food. AND sunday pent it twith the inlaws for superbowl.<br />I spent most the evening in the kitchen cooking. WHICH i didn't mind as I was feeling anti social lately.<br /><br />I felt like an old married couple yesterady as we were watching some episode on rome or something and we both could barely keep our eyes open. 8:36 we were in bed. SO SAD.<br /><br />I'm hoping I get out of this rut Im in. NOT liking it one bit. At least I hjave just over 2 months left of work left. YIPPITY DO DA.sweet_dehttp://www.blogger.com/profile/01036735750137070590noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-20328043.post-1164579515718785712006-11-26T16:59:00.000-05:002006-11-26T17:18:35.806-05:00CAN NOVEMBER BE DONE YET???????????????I'm sick of November its been HELL ALL MONTH.<br /><br />Any of you following me this moth so far can see what a CRAPTACULAR month it has been.<br /><br />WELL LETS Add to the SAGA.<br /><br />Saturday. Found out at church that a well known family in our church, their youngest son passed away that morning. He had Ceribral Palsy and was always a happy little guy. (he's was 20. But I remember him at 8) So I was crying away in church when they mentioned that.<br /><br />Funeral was to take place on Tuesday morning. But with taking 2 days off work last week and then finding out we were short staff again. since we now had 2 staff members who are out of contry for funerals of their grandmothers. (happened 1 week apart. What are the chances) I knew asking that time off was not going to happen. But thats ok. My mom and sister went with Meagan.<br /><br />Tuesday. FUN FUN Tuesday.<br /><br />Off to work I go. My client canceled. So I went to another client whos normally a dream. I'm setting up. THings are ok. Mom mentioned he's been up since 4:30 AM and had taken some meds since he's comming down with a cold. FUN. Thats ok I'll play it by ear, and if its not going I'll cancel. WELL, behaviours start with mom when she tries to get him to pee. He hasn't since he woke. So he comes to me screaming.<br /><br />So I'm letting him take a minute to get it out of his system. The now hes on the floor, thats ok but getting REALLY close to the futton metal frame. Too close for my comfort. SoI get on my knees to move him and the kid bloody kicks me in the abdomen. Little pain from the kick but ok.<br /><br />45 minutes later cramps start. First mild but they just got worst and worst. So I end session at his break. I leave and call my midwifes. She mentioned just to take warm baths. AND and if the cramping doesn not die down we'll get an ultrasound.<br /><br />So they start calming down as the afternoon goes bye. So My plan was to get chris and we get meagan and grab me some clothes.<br /><br /> Well we get to my moms, and find out my cat. My cat of 12 years was missing since the night before. MY Asshole of a brother. Went for a smoke and when he came in he didnt check if the screen door closed properly. My mom came in shortly after didnt think much of it. Saw my sisters cat. WHO would leave at any chance, so she never thought of my 12 year old cat who's about4-7 pounds. I'm freaking. Thinking of him freezing to death in the cold night. HOPPING hes in someones garage or someone brought him in.<br /><br />So off we go looking in the park. The more we walk the more we realize theirs 7 streets agcent to this park. HE COULD BE ANYWHERE. By this point I'm too stressed I dont want to eat. I'm cramping like crazy and all I can think Is I ned to get home to make lost cat posters.<br /><br />So we did that and bring them to the house. WHen I handed them to my brother. He acted like this was ruining HIS evening plan. I told him for at least now deliver to every complex (their in a 55 unit towncomplex) so they did. BUT I was going to shoot him in the head.<br /><br />Well I cramped all night. And in the morning I called the midwifes and she told me to rest some more and get an ultrasound.<br /><br />All was fine with little baby. I actually got to see the left and right hemisphere of its brain. THAT WAS AMAZING. But as I sat in the waiting room for 50 minutes with a sick woman coughing all over me. To which I'm avoiding sick people like the plague as I've taken enough days off already in 3 months.sweet_dehttp://www.blogger.com/profile/01036735750137070590noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-20328043.post-1163828824526123702006-11-18T00:26:00.000-05:002006-11-18T00:47:04.543-05:00MAN what a daySo its friday. Off sick from work. Tried to play hookie yesterday but I actually ended up catching something. because a tevery attempt to eat somwthing it was comming right out of me. NO IDEA what or WHERE i caught this bug.<br /><br />SO resting up today. NOT lookingforward to having Dinner with my brother and his CRAZY ASS girlfriend. BUT WHATEVER.<br /><br />SO day goes as usual. I figure if we dont hear back frm my bro by 6pm we were going to see HAPPY FEET. SO I come home with my girl from doing some erands at 4. I go to kiss CHris and I get hit with a wall of the motor oil smell on him. He gets pissy at me "well I washed my hands" with my response "its all over you, why cant you just change your clothes." to which BONEHEAD responds with "why are you so sensitive to smells lately. I've been doing the same thing for the last 3 months. WHATS WITH YOU?????"<br /><br />I stormed off. I'M FREAKING PREGNANT. THATS WHATS WRONG WITH ME. BUT instead of starting a fight over something as little as this I go to bed. Take a nap and get awoken by chris going "I think thers something wrong with the fridge.<br /><br />I get up YUP its gone caputs. NOw this fridge belonged to his parents when they lived here. So I have never known exactly HOW OLD it is. thats when I find out the bloody thing is 35 freaking years old. HAD I known it was THAT old. Iwould have started saving money long time ago. $20 a pay, we would have money for a fridge. BUT NO, we have nothing now. SO I guess he worked something out with his mom to get a cheaper fridge and she pay for it and it stays with the townhouse when we move.<br /><br />SO Off we go to pick her up at kipling and to the brick we go. SO they hadf a decent basic fridge on sale for $479. SO we get that. THe man comes over says they can diliver sunday. EXCELLENT. As currently were trying to salvage the forzen meat in our cooler sanwiched between bags of ice. ANd Meagan's homo milk is currently residing in our 12can coke fridge.<br /><br />So we complete everything and he goes to book the delivery and now its for monday. FINE we need it NOW so I was going to have my sister watch Meagan here. But he said He would check to see if something opened up for sunday he would call us tonight. Well MR HUGH called us back. DElivery on SUNDAY. I'm so excited.<br /><br />But by the time we drove Chris's mom home and we returned home it was 8:45 ANd CHris went to bed at 9:20 as he ahs to work tomarrow.<br /><br />GOOD LORD. SO our plan for our Grey Cup Party of pizza and pop will now be changed to pork chops and pop. TO help salvage some of the meat. Because I know their going to thaw out. AND can stay thawed for a day. But I cant re-freeze them after. SO Chris and Meagan are going to have Salmon for dinner tomarrow and this way we are not waisting that much money by throwing the food out. BUT That just means were going to have to do a COstco run this week when I get paid.sweet_dehttp://www.blogger.com/profile/01036735750137070590noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-20328043.post-1163265973529698852006-11-11T12:13:00.000-05:002006-11-11T12:26:13.596-05:00MY OH MYHOW does time go by. SO now into week 14. I STILL cant eat pork chops or ground beef. I musterd $20 to buy zoodles and mini ravioli for lunch this week as all last week I had fast food and I quickly became broke.<br /><br />AND LAST WEEK. WOW.<br /><br />We finally got to seeing Meagan's Cardioligist on HAlloween. HE wants proof that these episodes are NOT related to her heart. SO he ordered a requisition for A loop moniter. ITs a long shot as these episodes are so irriegular in frequency. BUT if by chance she has one it will moniter her heart actions. SO got this little ipod looking machine last friday. AND its going to be on for another week. I got scared when I called to book the appointment. Because the machine she had on in April was MASIVE for a 7 month old. I could not see my VERY MOBILE running girl strapped down for 2 weeks with a thing that weights 1/2 her body weight. BUT THANKFULLY its not. Many people at church commented of 'oh how cute her own ipod" which is nice because I can then I later told them its a heart moniter. BUT people can think I'm ruining my daughters ears and just a cool mom for buying her 14 month old an ipod.<br /><br />THen ON wednesday I had more bleeding. ENOUGH BRIGHT RED BLOOD to 1/2 soak the toilet paper first thing in the morning. SO I freak. CAll the midwifes. She calls me back in 2 minutes. She told me to get my but to an ultrasound. and 'DONT GET YOUR HOPES UP" THANKS so the first appointment I could get was at 11:30. I immediatly called CHRIS. Because I was a wreck already. When I called my program director to inform her I was not comming in I broke down and cried. I Needed him. Hes the buest guy ever. EVEN thought I knew hes only a 15 minute walk I told him finish what he needed to do because I would not get an appointment any earlier than 9am. (it was 7:45 at time) He was home in 5 minute. OUT OF BREATH, but home. WE sat on the stairs and got my cry out.<br /><br />SO all moning I tried to drink my fluid and yet keep going to bathroom to check if I was still bleeding. To which I was but it was slowing down. WE go off to the hospital for the ultrasound and the technitian was supper nice. Immediatly saying she was getting a heart beat and everything looked fine. BUT man are their machines crappy. I was not quite 13 weeks and shes showing the screen going "there do you see the heartbeat?" Um no but I take your work for it. <br /><br />I remeber at the fertility clinic how clear their picture quality was at 7 weeks you could see the definition of the fetus and the little flash in the middle.<br /><br />SO were off to the midwifes on MOnday. Hopefully we'll get to hear the heartbeat. CHris is egarly anticipating the ultrasound in what4-8 weeks. HE still wants to find out the sex of baby. ME I'm not too sure IF I do.sweet_dehttp://www.blogger.com/profile/01036735750137070590noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-20328043.post-1161223556298759802006-10-18T22:00:00.000-04:002006-10-18T22:05:56.313-04:00So we went to the MidwifesThat was good. Because until last friday NEVER thought of Twins. We desperatly wanted twins first time around and had so many ultrasounds with the fertility clinic that I was upset the first time they mentioned no twins.<br /><br />But That thought never came into my head until Friday. So while we were there they tried to hear the heartbeat. But at just past 10 weeks was a no go. But my midwife mentioned that if there were twins my uterus would be larger than it was (not yet past pubic bone)<br /><br />I'm still having a hell of a time with this nausia. It just wont GO AWAY. I was so looking forward to my dinner of pasta this evening and had a 1/4 of my meal and STILL not feeling well from it.<br /><br />GOD I HOPE IT PASSES AFTER 12 WEEKS. If not I'm definitly getting a perscription at my next visitsweet_dehttp://www.blogger.com/profile/01036735750137070590noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-20328043.post-1159932924018956082006-10-03T23:27:00.000-04:002006-10-03T23:35:24.046-04:00NOT AGAINSO Meagan had another episode this morning.<br /><br /> I was letting her sleep in as I knew my sister worked until 1am yesterday(this morning) So I was sitting here on the computer just before 8am. Meagan cried as per normal to say "mommy I'm up" so I go in and get her out of the crib. SHe then proceded to fall right back asleep on me. NO biggy I wasnt quite done on the computer.<br /><br />Then she started get really sticky and clamy. NO FREAKING I said to myself. Check her out, pulse seemed good but she would not wake. Kept feeling her up getting really cold now, looking pale and yellowish and deffinitly CLamy. Trying to wake her softly, then rubbing her back, and saying her name louder. Took 5 minutes to get her awake.<br /><br />So go to change her diaper and shes going back to sleep on change table. Trying everything to keep her awake and focused. Even when she was finally awake and letting me dress her. She was not standing on her own. Moreso hunched on me for support. Took a good 20 minutes until she was herself again.<br /><br />So I called that specialist, Since we have an appointment October 31 wondering if theres any way we can get in sooner. SHe told me she was going to relay this info to the doc and she'll get back to me in the next few days. She suggested in the mean tome to see our family doctor.<br /><br />So didnt get an appointment for today but will be seeing him first thing at 10am tomarrow. This is not right, it should not be happening and I want a resolution for this and not 'well the heart ultrasound we did came back normal.' Cuz I'm sorry but this IS NOT NORMAL.......<br /><br />All I want is an answer to why my daughter is like this.sweet_dehttp://www.blogger.com/profile/01036735750137070590noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-20328043.post-1159826066315429582006-10-02T17:49:00.000-04:002006-10-03T23:35:42.060-04:00ITS SO DIFFERENTok being pregant this time around is KILLER.<br /><br />2 weeks ago we were at a work function and I had some chicken ceaser salad for lunch HELLMINS DRESSING. Well that just About turned my stomach upside down.<br /><br />So for the next 2 day I had the hardest time finding food that would not make me nausiated.<br /><br />It still continues I can no longer stand Chicken, hotdogs, Kelbasa :-( and right now crackers. Oh and my ham sandwich was not the greatest for lunch.<br /><br />SO for the second night in a row I'm eating Perogies for dinner. Even the other night with pasta I could only eat 1/2 of it.<br /><br />Now before people start on the "well it must be a boy, sphiel" I dont want to hear it. All I want is to not be so tired all the time and let me eat.sweet_dehttp://www.blogger.com/profile/01036735750137070590noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-20328043.post-1158420788850605252006-09-16T11:12:00.000-04:002006-09-16T11:33:08.883-04:00WHAT A WEEKSO meagan turned 1 this week. ANd Had a huge Party with my In'laws and my mother.<br />There were streamers, ballons<br />ANd found out were PREGNANT<br />DIdnt think it would happen this quickly. IT took a year to concieve Meagan and that was WITH Fertility Medication.<br /><br />We were think well, MEagans 1 now. Try for a year, if not get to the fertility Clinic, and by the time Meagan is around 3, she would have a baby brother or sister.<br /><br />This has changed our plans, but little will need to be bought. EXCEPT a dreaded DOUBLE STROLLER.sweet_dehttp://www.blogger.com/profile/01036735750137070590noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-20328043.post-1155617623964824532006-08-15T00:49:00.000-04:002006-08-15T00:53:43.976-04:00OK I pledge to be here moreCan I say when I normally come here to post, Isusally make my way to my website that tracks my visits.<br /><br />It is so cool that there is someone visiting my site EVERYDAY. Usually some of the girls from the one website I frequent. (which the www. page is still a secret to everyone I know, Why dont know, guilty preasure I guess) or those girls linking from their own blog page.<br /><br />Whats even more interesting is people going google serches and my page comes up. THere was one person who serched about daughters and found me on page 42. Sorry but if I'm doing a google serch and what I want is not on first 5 MAYBE 10 pages I'm making my request a little more specific.<br /><br />sometimes its nice to see when your having a bad day and feeling blue, (as I am today) its nice to know that there are people out there that care to see whats new in my life.sweet_dehttp://www.blogger.com/profile/01036735750137070590noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-20328043.post-1155616241762696702006-08-15T00:10:00.000-04:002006-08-15T00:30:41.790-04:00SUMMERSo its been close to 2 months since I've been here. Summer is always a busy time, for myself. ANd SUre for everyone else.<br /><br />I've been enjoying my guilty pleasure of Big Brother. GO JAMES GO.<br /><br />Just came back from a 6 day trip to montreal, never again visiting with family who I have not seen in 12 years.<br /><br />Getting myself ready to return to work in 2 1/2 weeks. WAs trully stressing over the fact in NOvember when Meagan was 3 months old. But I guess a .03 cent increase to our mileage and a $1.50 raise is making me look forward to returning to work.<br /><br />Meagan's taking 1-2 steps on her own for the last 2 weeks. She's gonna be running around. Just cant wait until these teeth come thru. SHe was super cranky for at least 2 weeks befor ethe first tooth came out, now its been 1 1/2 weeks since then and the second top tooth is nowhere to be seen of comming out. I was certain it would have been out by now, but until then its going to be nights of sleeping with her in our bed, or on the couch. and her beating me in her sleep.<br /><br />Last night she fell asleep at 9, and at 1:30 she was wide awake. She faught with me until 2:45 in ed, then downstairs we went. SHe did not want to sit, lay down, crawl, walk, read, play, watch tv. Faught till 4:30, at that time I was exhausted, went to put her in her crib. thnink if maybe she layed down she would sleep.<br /><br />Well chris was up, so he took her down. I went back down because even if I slept for 1 1/2 hours before he left for work I would NOT be a pretty preson. Well who would of thunk it, but she sat like a little angel in daddys arms while watching Blast from the past. AAAHHHHH<br /><br />With the loom of September, so much is happening. I'm returning to work. MEagan is turning one. ANd one ig one, one of my closest friends is going to Australia for a work/school program.<br /><br />She's going to be gone for 1 year. Its great shes going, because now that shes 25 theres not too many years as she puts it where she can just up and leave for a year. I know its going to be the greatest experience in her life. But I'm sure gonna miss her.sweet_dehttp://www.blogger.com/profile/01036735750137070590noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-20328043.post-1150429508934275532006-06-15T23:31:00.000-04:002006-06-15T23:45:08.966-04:00Good LORD ITS BEEN A WHILESO I just came her to see its been almost 2 months since my last post. I feel bad to all those who cheak me out and see no change.<br /><br />So what has happened in my life since????? well its most probably going to concern my baby girl who this week turned 9 months. OH I have little over 2 months before returning to work, *sniff*sniff*<br /><br />Not much was happeneing with her for a while. Finally some time after my last post around 7 1/2 months she learned to roll over, but not continuously. She still got better and better at her walking, with us supporting her arms of course. Then it seemed all happened in 2 weeks, May 25th, took 1 step towards me not holding onto anything. I was so happy CHris was there to witness it.<br /><br />On Mothers day we finally saw the beginings of teeth on her bottom gums. Took almost 2 weeks and May 29th one poped and June 2nd the other came thru. Then last week on June 7th, she crawled. I was so happy, but now she crawls over to the gate keeping her in the living room, stand up and shake the cage like an inmate "let me out let me out LET ME OUT!!!" Its kinda cute.<br /><br />I'm getting myself ready for my girlfirends B-day next weekend. ITS SO GONNA KICK MAJOR ASS. BBQ, and Drinking and swiming and smoking, oh I cant wait.<br /><br />As much as I know this summers gonna pass in a second, I'm looking forward to my Trip To montreal in August before having to return to work.<br /><br />BUt as each day passes, I get sad knowing I'll be leaving my girl. I know EVERY mother feels this way, but I'm happy my sister will be the one watching her. My only issue is how will I survive. RIght now Meagan falls asleep somewhere between 9-10 and I dont get to sleep until 2-3. SO we spend most the morning napping away, Her choice not mine. (but I'm not going to complain)<br /><br />For me to get to work by 9, I'd have to leave my sisters around 8:30. TO get to my sisters we'd leave our house at 8 to get there unpack and away we go. I would need to be getting up aroud 6:30-7 the latest. Me the girl who would roll out of bed normally at 8 am, when will I get things done. UNtil Meagan turns 1, I'll have to pick her up as the carseat does not fit rearfacing in CHris's car, so for 3 weeks when I finish at 4:30, I'd treck across the city to get her, at least Chris can start making dinners on a regular basis.<br /><br />so theres my rant. or complain, I hope to get here more often to update my life, but life has been too busy. Back to laundry I gosweet_dehttp://www.blogger.com/profile/01036735750137070590noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-20328043.post-1145513403780141262006-04-20T01:54:00.000-04:002006-04-20T02:10:03.800-04:00I'm losing itI'm so freaking happy.<br /><br />I had my fitness evaluation this past monday. Wanted to see how the last 4 months with my trainer has improved me. AS I know my jeans no longer fit. And I'm having to wash them each day just about to keep them tight on my ass.<br /><br />So far I've lost 8 inches in total.<br />1 in chest<br />2 in waist<br />2 in hips<br />2 in thighs<br />1 in bicep relaxed.<br />I've also gained 1/2 inch in bicep flexed.<br /><br />I've also losed 6% body fat and gained 3 lbs in water weight. Which they wanted me to<br /><br /><br />I'm so proud of myself. I know the results could be much better if I actually made it to the gym an other 4 times other than my training sessions. and if I stuck to the eating regimin as they want. But I'm happy so far.<br /><br />My weight was a different story. THey first weighed me pre xmas, when I gained close to 15 pounds. and weighed me day after 3 easter dinners and pre period bloating.<br /><br />By their caculations I was up 5 pounds, But I know for a fact its close to 15 pounds lose with my trainer.<br /><br />So yippy for me. I'm so excited.<br />I'm this much closer to my goal. once I get there. This will be what I'm getting done. What I want is a Jessica Rabbit tatoo. TO represent the sexy redhead I am. AND I finally found a picture online of what I want. with the quote "I'm not Bad...... Just drawn that way" written above and below Jessica.<br /><br />Just cant quite decide on the pic. WOuld love the first one. But whatever looks best on my arm.<br /><br /><a onblur="try {parent.deselectBloggerImageGracefully();} catch(e) {}" href="http://photos1.blogger.com/blogger/6126/2034/1600/WALL.jpg"><img style="margin: 0pt 10px 10px 0pt; float: left; cursor: pointer;" src="http://photos1.blogger.com/blogger/6126/2034/320/WALL.jpg" alt="" border="0" /></a><a onblur="try {parent.deselectBloggerImageGracefully();} catch(e) {}" href="http://photos1.blogger.com/blogger/6126/2034/1600/images2.jpg"><img style="cursor: pointer;" src="http://photos1.blogger.com/blogger/6126/2034/320/images2.jpg" alt="" border="0" /></a><a onblur="try {parent.deselectBloggerImageGracefully();} catch(e) {}" href="http://photos1.blogger.com/blogger/6126/2034/1600/images5.jpg"><img style="cursor: pointer;" src="http://photos1.blogger.com/blogger/6126/2034/320/images5.jpg" alt="" border="0" /></a>sweet_dehttp://www.blogger.com/profile/01036735750137070590noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-20328043.post-1145310759200589392006-04-17T17:24:00.000-04:002006-04-17T17:52:39.243-04:00OH gotta love Easter with the inlaws.First my first rant for yesterday is towards my husband.<br /><br />I know its not his fault for being a heavy sleeper. But if Meagan and I can play all over him for 10 minutes and not have hime move an inch. YEAH hes a heavy sleeper. So the plan was to go to 9am mass as he was working at the movie theater from 11-5. (thats an other rant. Only man with wife and child and HE has to work easter sunday where the other teenages will not take his shift)<br /><br />So chris knew we were to leave at 8:20 to be at church for 8:30 get in when 7:30 mass gets out to get good seats up front. Well the bastard never woke up. I did not wake him as I had meagan all cranky and still not herself from thursday.<br /><br />So off I go to HIS grandmothers Easter dinner that starts at 3pm. YES DINNER AT 3!!!!! All alone and with his sister. His father and uncle are there. Not sure in what state of drunkeness Grandma will be in.<br /><br />So we sit and heres the first thing His father did not like comming out of my mouth. He mentioned his ex-girlfriends , son's ex-girlfriend (who is the mother of his child) was taking their child easter egg hunting. ANd oh how great it will be for Meagan to go next year.<br />ME: NOPE, not doing that.<br /><br />The shock and horror on his face "well, well why?"<br /><br />(please to those who do not see it my way not meaning to flame you, this is just my beliefs)<br />Me: Nope easter is about going to chuch, celebrating the death of christ. And spending it with family. No easter egg hunts, no gifts, just the occasional chocholate<br /><br />well HE was S NOT IMPRESSED.<br /><br />then as tim passes he asked if she was crawling yet, as said above ex-girlfriends son's daughter was crawling at 7 months. Bullshit i say.<br /><br />ME: nope, not yet. and dont think she will as she will walk assited now and stll does not like tummy time.<br /><br />SO as conversation goes. Grandma mentions how she was a sport widow during the summer months. That grandpa used to play baseball, coach baseball, play tennis, lawn bowling and she never saw him. Then chris's dad says "well I'm no different I used to play 3 basebal leagues. Tounements all the time but stil did go by kids (in his dreams)" So It took all of me not to say 'well and thats why your daughter hates you and your son would rather look thru foggy googles than to trully hate his father.'<br /><br />This was after I mentioned that chris is quiting his part tim job at the movie theater,His dad "well why would he do that, thougth he liked the job and money?"<br />Me: "he works 4 shifts there now as is and going to be playing 1 night a week at baseball. He wants to put his family before job and its his decission<br /><br /><br />Then towards 4:45 I mentioned to grandma we will be leaving at 5:30 as i want to spend the evening with Chris.<br /><br />Meagan fell asleep at 5:15 just as tea was ready. so I lay her down on the love seat thats 2 feet wide. not a problem as she barely moves during her sleep except to shake her head no. I go to get a cup of tea. so grandma goes "A(father in law) come sit with us, dont be an outcast."<br />As he looks natly at me he says "well A(sister in law) knows WHY i'm not comming to sit down." she then says "why? because of meagan?" then I get evil look god knows now.<br /><br />He did not trust my judgement that I know my 7 month old NOT TO MOVE WHILE SHE SLEEPS. and he sat on another seat at the foot of the loveseat for 30 minutes as she slept.<br /><br />So I'm a horrible mother in his eyes, because its been since christmas he's seen her and NOT ONCE CALLED TO ARRANGE A VISIT.<br /><br />this just makes me hate him even more.<br />AAAAAAAAAAHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!sweet_dehttp://www.blogger.com/profile/01036735750137070590noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-20328043.post-1144984155749977942006-04-13T22:57:00.000-04:002006-04-13T23:09:15.770-04:00Update on Meagan****Can I make alittle disclaimer: I have NO IDEA where my ramblingings were going in my last Blog. Just looked back and I trailed off at the end. MAybe I was tired, maybe I was insane, whatever I have a baby. THATS MY EXCUSE :-0****<br /><br />SO we met Dr Jackass last week. AND he was not a jackass.<br /><br />Her ECG was abnormal and he heard a heart murmer. So off we go to verify these are in tehir normal ranges.<br /><br />Fast fowrward to today......................................................<br /><br />SO today was one of the big days. WARNING LONG<br /><br />Off to the hospital we go. SO I got NO SLEEP. Tummy not feeling well from last night (think it was the mozzarella sticks and chips and dip I had for dinner ECSTATIC )<br /><br />SO meagan woke at 2:45. Ate and we were back asleep at 3:30 am. SO I got all of 3 hours sleep.<br /><br />All was going well. Appointment was for 12:45 (remeber this It will come up later) So fed her at 9am so she could get enought and take her time to eat.<br /><br />She finishes in 10 minutes. She was starting to fall asleep, so I put her in her excersaucer. THen I needed to pee, so Off I go. TO come back to a baby asleep in her excersaucer. I know I know I should have taken a picture Doh!<br /><br />SO I try everything I can to wake her. nothing working so I figure an 30 minute nap aint gonna kill her. Really do they expect a 7 month old to stay awake for a minimum 6 1/2 hours? NO!<br /><br />SO I join in this nap. Alarm goes off and try to wake her NOTHING. Even lifting her eyelids and shes rolling them back, down or off to the side to not look at me.<br /><br />SO she ends up sleeping for 1 hour 20 minutes. THats ok, still have pleanty of time till 1pm.<br /><br />So we leave a little early so I can arrive at the hospital 15 minutes early to fill in paper work.<br /><br />Get there go down the hallway. Now when we first registered. I saw on her sheet 1:30 by our name. Must be wrong RIGHT. Didnt mention anything.<br /><br />SO 1pm comes along and they let this older gentleman in before us Confused Confused Confused Confused<br /><br />Now meagan has not eaten in 4 hours and getting tired and hungry. My sister goes and hunts a nurse down, who was surprised of Meagans wait on food??<br /><br />She comes and takes our info for paper work. I ask how long its gonna be as shes starving and need to feed her. "oh you dont feed her until after the exam"<br />"EXCUSE ME. NO the doc's reception note says I can feed her after the sedation."<br />"oh, well no the sedation may make her vomit if she eats after. We usually give water to make sure they can swallow"<br />"uh no, I dont give her water."<br />"well you cant give her formula, unless you Breastfeed. But only half a feed"<br /><br />Here I'm thinking to myself Meagan will not accept a half feed. Whatever. If Meagan wants a full feed she'll get it.<br /><br />SO they dont take me into the room till 1:45 (almost 5 hours since last feed and 3 1/2 hours since she woke up) Do all the blood preasure and tempurature.<br /><br />So we have the option of oral or rectal dosage. If dont orally its a bitter taste and usually can only give 1/2 dose. If she is not expected to 'VOID' anytime soon we can give rectally.<br /><br />So I opt for rectal as we had a poop this am, and less evasive. (sp?)<br />mentions how she would be feeling dizzy kinda drunkish. so its a different feeling for baby so calm her and get her to sleep the best I can with avoiding feeding at all cost. But can if nothing works in 30 minutes. usually takes 10-30 minutes.<br /><br />SHe conks out in 1 minute. Not due to drugs but on her<br /><br />SO there doing the tests, first technician was super niice and was doing her job great, she had most her stuf done in 35 minutes (where she said 45) and Doc was on his way. NOPE later find out this old woman ( i mean old at least 50) sits down and starts doing stuff. To which minutes ago she was asking the first tech why she was not doing this or that. To which her responce was "were not doing that"<br /><br />NOw old woman takes 30 minutes and then tells me shes in TRAINING.<br /><br />THen doc stolls in. Tells me pics look good so far, nothing seems to be the matter. But basically does everything over these two woman did for last hour. THen at 1 hour 38 minutes he asks "how long are her afternoon naps usally"<br />"30 minutes" as he jerks her a bit too fast and wakes her. NOw hes trying to get a test of her blood preasure and need to a) keep her still b) would prefer everyone to basically shut up (not exact words)<br /><br />After trying to get the blood pressure for 5 minutes he gives up.<br /><br />SO theres our day.<br /><br />In 2 weeks were going in for 24 heart moniter test. but things are good.<br /><br />My only worry was watching the first tech measure all the little "holes" blips and bloops. All that was running thru my head was I did this to my baby as I never could take my prenatal vitamins regularly. Hell If I remembered once a week was good. (i'm not a pill popper)<br /><br />But so far baby good. Sleeping most evening but right now my only concern was at church she started to kinda sqeel but could not get it out. Sounded very raspy like she was weezing. of couse she was going it before mass started while all quiet and did it a few times in a row that just about the whole congrigation I could hear them turn to our direction as it sounded like she could not breath. But she was just trying to laugh.<br /><br />Will keep an eye out for that tomarrow if it gets worst I'll be calling telehealth. But not sure why shes doing it as drugs given rectally so nothing would later irritate her throught.<br /><br />So if your still here I wish to thank my BITCH AGAIN, as when we returned home there was a package and she mentioned she was thinking of us today. Really needed it.sweet_dehttp://www.blogger.com/profile/01036735750137070590noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-20328043.post-1143703127199701482006-03-30T01:57:00.000-05:002006-03-30T02:18:47.223-05:00Oh irritating peopleSO a litle break down. THe other day apparently I never signed out of MSN messenger. SO at 10 pm when WE brought Meagan up to bed, There was a message from Chris's god mother. WOW shes talking to me. (she was pissed never invited to Meagan's baptism, but shes part of Chris's life not Meagan's )<br /><br />SO she was asking when I was comming down to cambridge (like 1 hour drive on 401) Mentioned how will check with chris about next sunday. So I was mentioning How excited I was. I vacumed the stairs up to the bedroom. THey had not been vacumed for at least 7 months and covered in cat hair.<br /><br />Then I mentioned how it was a baby step in the mountain of things that need to be done here. Then she goes on I should have a sign "if you make the mess, you clean it up" I said thats fine and dandy but when most of the mess is mine, Donr have time in my Day with Meagan to do it.<br /><br />She was appaled. How could I be at home for a year and NOT have the time to keep my house in tip top shape?? I mentioned that my days are spent with Meagan. She only takes 30 minute naps, and I normally enjoy a nap with her. If not I take a piss, a shower or something. I barely can make food, eat it and clean the plates its on. And with chris workin 4 nights a week, dishes have not been done.<br /><br />"well just leave Meaga alone, she needs to learn how to entertain herself" well yeah I do let her be, but after 10 minutes she no longer wants to be in exerscaucer, then 5 minutes later no longer wants to be in her swing. Her attention span is so short, I'm constantly entertaining her.<br /><br />THen she goes off how I should basically leave her in a playpen and go about my day. UM HELL NO. I was sooo pissed off. I had a child to enrich my life, not to make my status as a woman better. I would rather interact with my daughter than have a clean houes.<br /><br />So Tuesday morning I was still fuming over this. AND my Chiropractor noticed my tension. I had mentioned this and he, who makes ton of money (his wife is also a chriopractor, They both do work in this office) said "dont worry, our house is just the same, Its a completly differrent gereation. We know that interacting with childern are so much more important that the cleanliness of our house holds."<br /><br />Then makes me think, I didnt turn out so bad, But then again I dont think My mother was ever like that. Back then they got 6 weeks mat leave, and I remember having a nanny when we lived in Thunder Bay.<br /><br />But then again explains her son. Who is shy, quiet and reserved, more into his video games and computer games like his father. I could just see no conversations. Hell she complains that her husband lives in the basement and barely speaks with him on a daily basis.<br /><br />I think if your in a marriage like that whats the point. Marriage is to enrich your life.<br /><br />Someone on one of my sites asked <strong>how do you know he's the one???????</strong><br /><br />My response was you know hes the one when you cant live with him, but still cant live without him. Chris has some annoying habits and on bad days just throws me over the edge. But in the end I only could tollereate them from him, but no one else.<br />That you share some interests and are willing to do what he likes/ she likes, even if it does not completly float your boat.<br />YOu can share silence and not get wigged out (ie the car commercial)<br />You can let the other go out without you. (I go to clubs, he goes bowling) still having things you do that you enjoy. ANd not get super jealous if their at the club<br /><br />Its taken me many years to realize these points. Before It yous to be you know he's the one because you love him. But really then you need to define What is love to you. MAny people have asked me this since we got together so young and were married young. other questions were like <strong>"how do you know he's the one, if hes the ONLY relationship you've had?"</strong> I could not bear being apart from him. Thats why.sweet_dehttp://www.blogger.com/profile/01036735750137070590noreply@blogger.com0